Oasis Haven
an oasis.. a haven

I'm afraid I won't be able to take it anymore one day.

By Anonymous
Had encounters with 3 stupid drivers as I was looking for a parking lot in Terminal 3. Lemme talk about the last one, I signalled early to hint to the car behind that I was gonna park. I knew that there was enough space for me to reverse into but after I started reversing she sounded her horn. I continued in and when she passed me, she gave me a look which meant "knn". 

1) I signalled early.
2) I reversed slowly.
And she still reverse her car further to let me park but instead sounded her horn. Sorry but this, along with the 1st 2 encounters (female drivers also) strengthens my impression that female drivers are bad.

Upon meeting up with my 2nd sis for the lunch I mentioned, I realised that I over-reacted a little in my previous post. I am still upset at her about the things mentioned (she obviously doesn't know) but not to the extent where I'd cut off relationships with her, she's still my sister. Here's the thing, if I bother to talk to her about those things and give her a wake-up call, she'd probably change.

Lunch at Dian Xiao Er was good. Dunno how to comment on the dishes, cuz I'm a simple-eater. Meaning I can even have plain rice with soya sauce if necessary. It's thanks to the Lasallian Leadership Camps in sec 3 and 4 which have helped me to appreciate food and not be fussy about it.

My dad sat in 2nd sis' car while I drove my mom, elder sis and nephew home. When we reached home my dad wanted to go to Exclusive Motors to take a look and 2nd sis followed the two of us. I was unresponsive at Exclusive while they discussed, cuz I know I'm f-ing (pardon me) stuck with this Dong Fong for at least 5-7 years.

I have always been unresponsive to my dad since we got this Dong Fong. You can say that I should forgive him and move on cuz he's my dad after all, but I just can't. Then what if he's gone forever the next day (touch wood) and I didn't even answer him properly when he last asked me a question? That may be the only scenario where I'll forgive him.

It's hard to understand how disappointed I was when he chose this Dong Fong instead of Perodua Kenari, Suzuki Swift or Honda Jazz. Seated in the passenger seat while he drove since I was young, I've always been looking forward to the day I get my driving license and let him sit in the passenger seat for once. I looked even more forward to the day I get to drive my "own" car (cuz I won't be paying for the installments yet).

As the saying goes, "the higher they go the harder they fall" or in Chinese "yi chang huan xi yi chang kong". All my hopes crumbled to nothing when he chose the Dong Fong, even though the others were cheaper or similarly priced. 

Look at the situation now, we bought it at $43,999 using a 10-year installment plan. And what's the price now? $34,999-$36999..

What really pisses me off is that after he caused the dent at the lower left side while driving to Malaysia, he said he'd go and get it repaired. That was in March, it's December now and it's still unrepaired!? Not to mention the central lock for back doors which are not working, air-con not being cold etc.

I shouldn't put all the responsiblity on my dad? Damnit he kept asking me what car I wanted when he jolly-well knew what I wanted, and in the end he chose this.

What has been done has been done, time can't be reversed? Sorry I just can't forgive him. When he's unable to work (touch wood), I'm the one who's gonna have to pay the installements for something I DIDN'T CHOOSE.
 


Nice one sis.

By Anonymous
Going to Changi Airport's Crystal Jade or 'Dian Xiao Er' for lunch tomorrow. My 2nd sis will be joining us, but when my elder sis asked whether she'll split the bill with her, her reply was (translated from Chinese) "you ask me to go de what". That was an excellent reply.

After she just had Kevin (my nephew), she usually left him with us on weekends so that she and her husband could slack a little. Ever since she hired a maid, she has been coming back less and less frequently. Whenever Kevin was sick, she would always call my mom or elder sis and either of them would make a trip down to her house at SengKang to take care of him. Now that she has a helper, she doesn't need us anymore and thus doesn't find the need to come back to this house.

She owes my mother about 3K+, which has accumulated since her marriage. She and her husband have a combined income of 4K, but she can't even be bothered to repay the debt slowly through installments, much less to say give my mom an allowance. 

As for her role as sister to me, sure she's more approachable than my elder sis but it's not like I've ever confided in her anyway (not that I confide in my parents or elder sis either). What has she done for me other than give gifts on special occasions.. lemme think.. oh I don't remember any. As far as I recall, she stayed with her boyfriend (now husband) since I was in pri sch already. 

When the time comes, I'll reprimand her about all these things and more, and make sure that she returns the debt she owes my mother to us.
 


I'm special.

By Anonymous
Almost wanted to go back to sleep again when I woke up but I managed to pull myself up to go to sch on time. Communication Skills for Business (CSB) was ordinary and ended with some homework to do over the holidays.

Had lunch in foodcourt 4 before chilling with PSP and Bleach episode 196. During DMDW, I was watching Jason play his usual Red Alert 3: Command & Conquer most of the time, but when the lecturer posed a question (which nobody seemed to be able to answer) I was still able to answer it.

ERP was boring as usual, she told us how to study it and went through the MCQ questions of past sem's paper. We were told we were supposed to go for a career talk at 3, but nobody could be bothered.

My mom showed me the electrical bill once I got home.. it was $230 last month! And now it's $300, what's going on? As they say, costs of living keep increasing but salaries don't. Hope families with low income can manage.

Unable to strengthen my resolve to study, I ended up watching the last few episodes of this season of Yu-Gi-Oh GX.

3 weeks of holidays after next week's 3 tests, don't wanna work at Laguna again. Last time I worked there (2 weekends ago), I felt so tired of working there. Not that there were a lot of customers, I just felt that way.

It's 8.36pm now, maybe I'll be able to fall asleep after some PSP cuz I'm really sleepy. I knew I didn't sleep well last night from the eyebags I felt when I woke up.

"You gain something, you lose something." I've been given the gift of some things, but in exchange some other things have been taken away from me..
 


It made me realise how alone I am.

By Anonymous
Reached sch an hour earlier and played psp until Data Mining (DMDW) lecturer arrived. Found out that she told the class to pass me the Market Basket Analysis (MBA) question but no one did.. There was no tutorial after that so we could go. The rest went to slack while I found a lab and finished the Enterprise Resource Planning (ERP) practical in an hour. There was supposed to be ERP practical from 12.30 to 3.30 but the lecturer was unavailable. I wasn't gonna wait until 12.30 for the lab to be available like the rest were going to, so I used another lab instead.

Watched Mobile Suit Gundam 00 and Yu-Gi-Oh GX before going to pick up my mom from work. Pretty much slacked around until 4 and took a nap, telling myself to do DMDW assignment when I wake up.

Woke up at 7, had dinner while watching GX and immediately started on my part for DMDW. Josh told me to use confidence of 0.75 (as he said in the afternoon) after I was done using the default of 0.8. So after talking with Ameen I had to re-do everything and re-do them I did.

3 mid-sem tests next week..
 


Time passes so quickly I barely have time to breathe.

By Anonymous
Called my mom once I woke up to see what time she could leave work. After washing up and browsing online a lil she called back and I was off to pick her up. Immediately went to the carpark wanting to wash the car after dropping her off and there was a Malay lady dressed in a black full-body dress. Who washes their car in a black full-body dress?

Anyway after she was done it was my turn and the car was really dirty cuz I hadn't washed it for a month, was working on Sat 2 weeks ago and then on Sun last week, then again that's just an excuse. There were stains at both the front doors, from the mirror going downwards, probably cuz I didn't wipe the car dry after all the raining these few days. I didn't feel guilty, just 'heart-pain'.

Bathed Lily once I got home and played a game of dota before showering. Watched National Treasure 2 and owned in 2 games of dota before chilling in the living room while playing NFS undercover on PSP. I was stuck at a race where I had to take out 4 police cars for a long long time. How was I supposed to do that when I drove forward and they drove forward too, when they could accelerate faster than me and when they avoided me until they could corner me? Did the developers even test the AI system? I finally completed it after a lot of attempts. If I get stuck like this again I'll probably delete the game straight away.

After watching another movie on PSP, I heard weird noises while washing up, tried to figure out where it came from but to no avail. 

Jagged from the National Lasallian Leadership Convention (NLLC) held in Ipoh, Malaysia which I attended back in sec 3 is supposed to call me this weekend to meet up cuz he's in Singapore for a holiday, but he hasn't..
 


Resolve

By Anonymous
Not bad, as written in my previous post, I got around to doing some work, only watching a few episodes of yu-gi-oh gx instead of a dozen, wrapping my books and practising guitar (after the post). It's a start.

Reached sch on time altho I left house a lil later, ran into Faiz, a sch-mate from St Pat's. Tried to pay as much attention as I could to MCOM and fell asleep when it ended. Woke up halfway through the 1st of 3 group's presentation on Security Management Practices (SEMP).

Stoned while the rest joked around about napfa around the stadium area. After which we went to Singapore Poly Graduates' Guild (SPGG) to bowl, scored 95 and 108, with 2 strikes in the 2nd game. Josh even commented that I had good control of my bowling, yea I kept trying to correct what I was doing wrong. Got cut by the bowling bowl's holes where you put your fingers in, it didn't have the acrylic protection, never using one without again, whenever that next time is.

Watched yu-gi-oh 5d's and gx before going on a movie spree on psp, with my right wrist aching from the bowling. Technically I'm not tired, but my eyebags and dark rings sure show otherwise. It's 10pm sharp now, will I be able to sleep early for once? Or will I succumb to dota or psp all over again?
 


I shall use The Secret

By Anonymous
National Heart Centre's (NHC) appointment's at 9am but I reached at 8.30. Another doctor did the echoscan for about 20mins (15 on heart, 5 on throat and stomach) until Dr Tan came. After a rushed statement that my condition is the same, I paid for it and left. Only upon reaching the bus stop did I remember the questions I wanted to ask her. So I called NHC which directed me to SGH and left my number with her.

Was back at sch before 10 and went to Student & Alumini Affairs (SAA) to ask about napfa test. She said that I could be exempted from napfa if I wanted and thus from Basic Military Training (BMT) as well due to my condition. But what's the point if the NS medical exam early next month declares me fit and I go into a physically-demanding section of pes C anyway. I'd be at the losing end as compared to the others who would have trained for napfa and received BMT.

Stoned in foodcourt 6 for a while with psp and chatted with JC, even fell asleep for 15mins before heading back down to T17 for lessons. Tried to pay attention during Mobile Commerce (MCOM) and Data Mining & Data Warehousing (DMDW).  Dr Tan called back and I asked her the questions I wanted to ask. In summary, I'm considered physically fit and she has given valid explanations for all the events that have happened. My condition will not necessarily deteriorate, it could happen for no apparent reason. However, over-exertion is of cuz not recommended and a healthy physical and mental lifestyle should help.

I hope that I have enough resolve to train up for napfa, which I can delay until the last few test dates in Jan. Hoping is not enough, I gotta get off my lazy ass..

To my delight, Ethical Hacking (ETH) was cancelled and I went home straight. Watched a few episodes of Yu-Gi-Oh GX while wrapping textbooks before spending the rest of the afternoon doing MCOM assignment. It seems that during the previous MCOM lesson Clement blended in nicely with the rest to form a group of 4 (the maximum), which leaves me out this time. Very well, I shall handle this 6 credit module (the highest) alone since solo-ing is allowed. In fact I've got all of the coding to work already (it was easy, just needed effort), just needa do stuff like pictures, fonts, extra features and more testing. No problem.

Watched Madagascar 2 which Zai passed to me, had dinner and played 1/4 + 1 game of dota. The 1/4 game was thanks to an idiotic host who left upon his friend dc-ing, owned in the 2nd game. It's nearly 10 now, maybe I'll sleep early for once.