While I was driving my mom home from work she told me my dad wanted to go into Malaysia this weekend to pick up his stuff from the fish farm where he used to work. She also said that if I didn't want to go she and sis would go instead. My face instantly became angry and upset, I admit.
Dad, why have you only decided to do this now when you quitted long ago in early March? Why only now when I'm going to be busy with project and exams are near? It doesn't take a genius to know that I'm expected to go instead of my mom and sis.
Yea, he's working hard at his current job where he drives people to wash up fast-food restaurants and supervises them. The working hours are like 6pm to 6am, I know it's tough. Other than this where he's working hard, what else I can learn from him? How to become an addict in smoking and drinking? His stubbornness? How disappointing he has been?
Fine, he's alright compared to other dads who have done worse things. It's just that at times I get really pissed off from thinking about this, like now. I keep thinking about how selfish he was when he chose this Dong Fong vehicle instead of a Perodua Kenari who cost $5K lower at that point in time.
He said it was so that 2nd sis, bro-in-law and my nephew could sit together with us when we go out instead of driving their own. Now? They've barely come to this home at all after getting their maid as they can now leave my nephew with her instead of my mom here. 2nd sis is another issue I'm upset with. I can tell you I will only speak to her in the future regarding the debt she owes my mom - $3K. Is it that difficult to put aside a few hundred a month from you and your husband's combined pay of $4K (after income tax) to return in installments? She also wanted my elder sis to pay for my $20+ phone bill instead, can't afford $20+? Fine, I'll pay for it myself, I don't want to owe you anything in the future. In fact I don't want a sis like you. Yes, I've thought it through and through before saying this.
Continuing on the Dong Fong subject, he also said that it was so that we could transport something bigger if we wanted. Now? The only time we've used it for that purpose was when 2nd sis wanted to transport standing hangers, and she didn't even have the courtesy of giving us a little money back for petrol.
He said the engine power would be okay. Now? No matter how hard I try to speed up its moving off from a stationary position, people always overtake me and cast glares. Other cars with lower capacity do a lot better than it.
Dad, it was supposed to be for me to drive to school, which part of the decision considered me? As I said, the Perodua Kenari I wanted was $5K cheaper and would require less petrol due to it having a smaller engine capacity. Why did you choose this Dong Fong instead?
It was all because of his selfishness that I have to take up the responsiblity of his decision now. The happiness in knowing that I was going to get a vehicle all disappeared in an instant when he chose the Dong Fong. Other than me washing it every two weeks, it simply sits downstairs everyday to endure the hot sun as I don't drive it to school, I only use it to drive my mom to and from work. Why should I frustrate myself over driving it to school when I had no part in the decision.
Yes, I should be very happy I have something to drive around. Do you think I'm happy now? In the very first place, I told my dad I wanted a 2nd-hand car which would be scrapped in 2-3 years after the COE expires. In fact I wanted and could work to pay for it totally by myself, I had a job vacancy back at Laguna National's Lakes' Cafe in Simei where I used to work.
Dad, which part of your decision with mom to isolate yourselves from all our relatives considered me and sis inside? I have 10+ uncles and aunties (their brothers and sisters) and 20+ cousins whom I wouldn't know even if I see them on the street. This year's Chinese New Year consisted of visits from our old neighbour and 2nd sis, that's all.
Life is really unfair, of all people I should know. Other than what has been mentioned here, there are so many other things which I have gone through, are going through or will be going through. Why is this happening to me when I'm not someone who pollutes the environment, not someone who wastes food, not someone who mistreats animals, not someone who spends money like water, not someone who has ever done badly in exams, not someone who has let his parents down, not someone who ignores the elderly by not giving up their seat in the bus or MRT, not someone who doesn't donate to people on the streets. Why can't I be healthy too?
I once thought that if someone else has to go through this, let it be me instead of him or her. I don't regret thinking that way a single bit, it's just that it gets so tough at times.
Dad, why have you only decided to do this now when you quitted long ago in early March? Why only now when I'm going to be busy with project and exams are near? It doesn't take a genius to know that I'm expected to go instead of my mom and sis.
Yea, he's working hard at his current job where he drives people to wash up fast-food restaurants and supervises them. The working hours are like 6pm to 6am, I know it's tough. Other than this where he's working hard, what else I can learn from him? How to become an addict in smoking and drinking? His stubbornness? How disappointing he has been?
Fine, he's alright compared to other dads who have done worse things. It's just that at times I get really pissed off from thinking about this, like now. I keep thinking about how selfish he was when he chose this Dong Fong vehicle instead of a Perodua Kenari who cost $5K lower at that point in time.
He said it was so that 2nd sis, bro-in-law and my nephew could sit together with us when we go out instead of driving their own. Now? They've barely come to this home at all after getting their maid as they can now leave my nephew with her instead of my mom here. 2nd sis is another issue I'm upset with. I can tell you I will only speak to her in the future regarding the debt she owes my mom - $3K. Is it that difficult to put aside a few hundred a month from you and your husband's combined pay of $4K (after income tax) to return in installments? She also wanted my elder sis to pay for my $20+ phone bill instead, can't afford $20+? Fine, I'll pay for it myself, I don't want to owe you anything in the future. In fact I don't want a sis like you. Yes, I've thought it through and through before saying this.
Continuing on the Dong Fong subject, he also said that it was so that we could transport something bigger if we wanted. Now? The only time we've used it for that purpose was when 2nd sis wanted to transport standing hangers, and she didn't even have the courtesy of giving us a little money back for petrol.
He said the engine power would be okay. Now? No matter how hard I try to speed up its moving off from a stationary position, people always overtake me and cast glares. Other cars with lower capacity do a lot better than it.
Dad, it was supposed to be for me to drive to school, which part of the decision considered me? As I said, the Perodua Kenari I wanted was $5K cheaper and would require less petrol due to it having a smaller engine capacity. Why did you choose this Dong Fong instead?
It was all because of his selfishness that I have to take up the responsiblity of his decision now. The happiness in knowing that I was going to get a vehicle all disappeared in an instant when he chose the Dong Fong. Other than me washing it every two weeks, it simply sits downstairs everyday to endure the hot sun as I don't drive it to school, I only use it to drive my mom to and from work. Why should I frustrate myself over driving it to school when I had no part in the decision.
Yes, I should be very happy I have something to drive around. Do you think I'm happy now? In the very first place, I told my dad I wanted a 2nd-hand car which would be scrapped in 2-3 years after the COE expires. In fact I wanted and could work to pay for it totally by myself, I had a job vacancy back at Laguna National's Lakes' Cafe in Simei where I used to work.
Dad, which part of your decision with mom to isolate yourselves from all our relatives considered me and sis inside? I have 10+ uncles and aunties (their brothers and sisters) and 20+ cousins whom I wouldn't know even if I see them on the street. This year's Chinese New Year consisted of visits from our old neighbour and 2nd sis, that's all.
Life is really unfair, of all people I should know. Other than what has been mentioned here, there are so many other things which I have gone through, are going through or will be going through. Why is this happening to me when I'm not someone who pollutes the environment, not someone who wastes food, not someone who mistreats animals, not someone who spends money like water, not someone who has ever done badly in exams, not someone who has let his parents down, not someone who ignores the elderly by not giving up their seat in the bus or MRT, not someone who doesn't donate to people on the streets. Why can't I be healthy too?
I once thought that if someone else has to go through this, let it be me instead of him or her. I don't regret thinking that way a single bit, it's just that it gets so tough at times.