I'm so drained out due to the the funeral procedures these three days.. I wanted to sleep for one and a half hours after I got home from everything but ended up asleep for four hours instead.. zzz.. *burnt out*

I had a miss call from my second sis , something had to be wrong. My paternal grandmother had passed away.. Never mind about the movie I was gonna watch with the rest.. I had to go down after class. Though I was never close to her and only saw her once a year during chinese new year, I still felt a sense of sadness. As I looked at the blue sky filled with clouds, I thought about her and there was this tingly feeling. Perhaps she was glancing at the people she knew from above and gave us her blessings.

It is always when we lose what we have that we learn to appreciate, isn't that right? We always take things for granted, only to realise it's too late when the time comes..

Yet another frustrating day at work.. thanks to the night-shift managers again. Fortunately I was doing service for once instead of station & buffet and only had to tend to 14 guests. However I was extremely distracted throughout the night.. I forgot the knife, candles and lighter for a birthday cake and ended up having to make trips for each. Then I didn't notice that my colleague hadn't finish setting up the tables for breakfast, he had left the place mats behind. After which I didn't clear the used cutlery when the guests started having dessert..

Anyway I've told the manager in charge of scheduling part-timers already that I'm quitting. It's already sat 1.22am so later on will be my last day.. There is no way he is gonna convince me to stay~

A few days ago I met my neighbour at the lift and she asked me whether I'm going to work. The conversation continued a little until she had to rush for her bus. That incident sparked my day off and I'll be remembering it for a good while..

Do you talk often to your neighbours? Have you ever spoken to them?

Fully describes how I'm feeling right now..

Untitled - Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

Chorus

Chorus

Lesson learnt today - never be too confident of myself or else I'll end up making mistakes instead.

I saw the web client development mini test as easy, easy to the extent that I overlooked small details like the closing of select and form tags.. =\ Thus I shall try to never be over-confident of myself ever again and thus avoid this kind of situation from happening.. ^_^

Hai.. we got 5 projects on hand right now, two of which are due this week and the other three are due next week. ZzZ wish I could just run away from them all..

After a whole week of worrying over whether I've forgotten anything about the BBQ and whether things will turn out fine, it's finally over. I'm just glad everyone had fun even though I got thrown into the pool.. =)

Well it's 2am and I'm sleeping over after the BBQ, I'll write more later if I get the inspiration.. =)

Wish I didn't have to work tomorrow.. hopefully there won't be many guests so that I won't be burnt out for the BBQ this Sat. The food has been ordered online and there are some things which we still need to buy on the day itself before the BBQ. I'm looking forward to it, I think it'll be fun.. =)

I got the job at Summerhouse in the first place cause my mom used to work with one of the managers there. I spent my holidays working there so I'd have a taste of how it feels like to work and earn extra money to spend in poly. It used be a fun place to work in with all the colleagues who had mine and each other's back. While clearing a table another would be get a cleaning cloth and the things to re-set the table with for use again. Although it was tiring, it was enjoyable cause we'd talk to each other and secretly steal food from the buffet for supper..

In the afternoon there was a phone call from Summerhouse and I knew they wanted to ask me to go back to work due to a shortage of manpower. I couldn't be bothered to answer it cause it wasn't worth it. Actually most of the time I don't work as a waiter, the position I work as is called the station & buffet runner. What I do is push a trolley full of plates to the washing area, bring clean ones back out and return them to the buffet while having to keep the buffet presentable. It used to be a two-person job with the station runner pushing the trolley and the buffet runner returning the plates. However I've been doing it alone ever since they wanted to cut costs and end up getting tired out like hell instead. In addition, they have a lack of teaspoons, bowls and sauce-dishes, meaning I've had to constantly run to the washing area with them in order to replenish the buffet sufficiently when there are a lot of customers. Anyway I'm still having the cold so I wouldn't have gone back anyway..

I wanted to work on fridays so I'd have spare cash to spend, since school ends at 5 and work starts at 6 anyway but now I'm having second thoughts.. I've been wanting to go for early morning jogs on weekends but now I spend them feeling lethargic and recovering from the fatigue of working.. Is it worth it to continue working at Summerhouse when there's nothing I look forward to anymore like I used to?