In primary school, I found out I had a small heart problem through the yearly check-up. The nurse heard that my heartbeat was different from normal and since then I've been going to KK hospital for check-ups. This year was no exception.

From what I understand from last year, it's a mild valve problem in the heart, meaning that the valve does not close entirely. Though they said that I'm still fit for PE etc. but I don't think so. Either my physical capabality is being affected by it or I really need to train up.

My thoughts ran wild a little the days before.. like what if it had become more serious? Is there an operation for it? If so, how much would it cost? How long would I be bed-ridden? Who will help me tide through? My family? No thanks, I appreciate their concern but not their nagging and insensitivity. Friends? Do I even have any real friends..?

In the room, I told the doctor I've been seeing for 5 years my heartbeat is slow in the morning when I wake up and really fast after runs. Before I can say anything else he gets a trainee to listen to my hearbeat and after verbally telling her I needed a heartbeat tracker and the medication for sinus he went out immediately. Hello? It's my heart we're talking about here?? Way to go..

After exiting with rather infuriated feelings, my mom went to the pharmacy while I went to get the heartbeat tracker. I don't know what you call it but there were like sensors attached to my chest with tape, 6 of them. I had to wear it for 24 hours and it was a real relieve when I did take it off this evening.

On Monday my mom will bring it back to KK hospital then I guess they'll examine it before getting back to me..