Got all of our results back today, scored 20 for L1R5, pretty average. In my class of 35, about 10 scored better than me, L1R5 wise. For each subject, only 2-3 scored As, so it's not like I've done badly at all, compared to the class.

In my previous blog, I said that I couldn't even trust myself to study harder if I got members for RS. However, now I can. I am determined to score better than ever, I mean it. I can say that I will definitely push myself. I won't be lying to her or to myself when I say I won't let anyone down. I know my results aren't desirable, but hey, this is the mid year, the real thing ('O' levels exam) comes in November. Now it is up to my sis to believe me, all I can say is that I mean it from the bottom of my heart.

I don't play my laptop for more than 2 hours at once anyway, cause I wanna let it rest. During the rest period of 1-3 hours I will study, that's for sure.

Went to Zion, a cybercafe, with a good friend today. We waited for over an hour before it was our turn. I didn't play of course, I didn't even know how to, so I just stood behind them and watched. I started to understand what DotA was about after a while.

While we were waiting, I observed the surroundings. Some were shouting when they got killed and some had the volume at maximum and people had to shout across to communicate with team-mates who were just beside. Some were so engrossed into the game that a few even looked like their life was the game. One's sitting position looked like his legs were amputated and that he had been sitting on a wheelchair for years. I almost wondered whether they were humans.

I might have been like that, but I think my gaming habit has become more under control, cause I always play for about only 2 hours before stopping to give the laptop a rest.

There was a girl from Chung Cheng, who sat beside a guy who was using the computer. I had a feeling that she kept looking at me and I looked back once, she was. After that I just stole glances at her and she left before I did, to my photography course. Kinda thought that she would come out and ask me for my number while I was calling my mom outside.. =P

The guy is kinda mean though, they weren't really talking and the girl only sat beside him, looking at the computer screen. They were there for about an hour, I estimated.. What a way to treat a girl?

Was sick the past few days.. was feverish, felt nauseous all the time and my headache almost killed me. To add to it, I was having my mid year exams. At least it finally ended on Friday, but the papers on that day were till 1.30pm. -.- Like I said to an old classmate, "those were the second worst days of my life". The worst was when I had a full blown migraine and vomited for hours..

The Western medicine didn't help at all, so I visited the Eastern doctor which I had gone to for almost a decade already and his medicine proved more effective. I am not visiting the former again..

I asked my sis whether I can get P2P for RS, she said "see mid year results first".. *sigh* She bought a laptop cooler, though.

I really want P2P now.. yet I don't think I deserve it cause I didn't study hard enough for the mid year exams.

I'm just afraid that I won't be haunted by my conscience if I get it and just slack around.. I don't want it to turn out that way.

I can't even trust myself!

I want P2P for RuneScape so bad, yet at the rate I'm doing for my mid year I'm not gonna do well for it and thus won't be able to ask my sis to pay for it. I know someone who would pay for it if I mailed the money to him and another person who will do it for 1 mil RS money.. but I decided against it.

Life was never fair in the first place. While people are making millions from the new slayer skill, I don't even have the chance. I only get 30K an hour training, while others get around 40K-80K cause of P2P combat advancements.

Until I can really cope with both my studies and play, I'll demolish the thought of getting P2P.. that is.. if I can even forget about it..

Went to Istana to pay respects to our late president, Mr Wee. Although the whole afternoon was spent just like that, it was well spent. There is much commotion regarding his passing, cause he did a lot for Singapore, especially for the citizens.

http://www.istana.gov.sg/history.html#wee

Love bite? Well, you got the bite part right.. except it was from mosquito(s). -.- Two on my neck and one on my left hand.. itchy itchy itchy!!

I would say I've messed up for all my papers so far.. English, Chinese and Social Studies. I wanna slap myself for not studying hard enough.. that's for sure. I wouldn't be surprised if I fail two of them..

All I can say to comfort myself is that this is only the mid-year, and not the prelims or actual 'o' levels.. then again.. we can't take things for granted. I just hope that my family will understand if I score badly for this mid-year.. cause I myself.. want to do well too..

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Enough of the negative stuff. I listened to Corrinne May's new album, Safe In A Crazy World yesterday night. Her songs are really awesome, I'm listening to them at the moment. Other than F.I.R., Corrinne May's songs have also been able to enchant me into listening to them over and over again and even anticipate for the next album.

If you're reading this, you should get Corrinne May's Safe In A Crazy World. Get the original, cause this is one album worth having. ;)

Sleep last night was horrible, my blanket was still not dry yet from washing cause the sun disappeared. Turn on the fan.. it was too cold. Without the fan.. it was too hot. I woke up several times and in addition, my neck hurts right now.. gotta change my pillow..

I had a wonderful dream though. I dreamt that I had a girlfriend and she looked like a girl I saw from the RGS convention in April. It was an awesome dream, I could almost taste the sweetness of having a girlfriend..