Tomorrow is Teachers' Day and celebrations were held today. We were in class until about 9.30 before we went to the hall. We had ordered food from one of the canteen stalls which one of my classmate's mom owns and most of them played murderer while the rest were playing their guitar. I really want to learn how to play it (guitar).. Teguh, the person whom I had asked to help me play for Patrician Idol previously is by far the best guitarist in our class and he played "Dare You To Move", it was awesome.. He can easily master a song after some practice and captured the attention of many. He's leaving for Austrialia next year though.. =( Maybe I'll be able to play the guitar before then and learn the song from him.. just maybe..

In the hall, two bands and two singers performed between slideshows of affirmation from teachers and their childhood pictures. The microphone messed up for the "Purple Spotted Giraffe", just like it did previously during Patrician Idol. =
I met up with Xin Ying and we shared a taxi to our primary school, Bedok West. Some studying in Ngee Ann were already there. There was even a "Bedok West Idol" competition, was cool.. We met up with Mdm Pang (our form teacher) and the rest soon arrived. I didn't have a gift for her but at least I took the effort to contact almost our whole class and ask them to go back. About 15 went back? A good number if you ask me..

After a group photo we left for Tampines. We finally found some seats in Long John Silver after some time, it was very crowded. Chuan Li kept teasing me that he "was holding a torch for me".. I wasn't offended and it was really funny actually. They commented that my ears turned red.. =X We wanted to go for a movie but there wasn't any good ones showing in Tampines Mall or Century Square so we decided to go to Safra to bowl and play pool.

I had never even touched a bowling ball in my life but I decided to try it. Hey, why not right? The ball fell into the gutter (I think that's what they call the "drain"?) several times but I guess I did okay for a total newbie beginner. There was lots of fun and laughter and I really enjoyed it.

The rest who weren't bowling played pool, they were pretty darn good at it as well. The loser would pay for the table and both who lost lost cause they hit the black 8 ball in.. =P

I brought $15 and am totally bankrupt now. 5+ for the taxi fare which Xin Ying forgot to pay me back, 5+ for bowling and gave 4 to Chuan Li cause he had no money to bowl. Speaking of Chuan Li again, his dad only earns 1.2K a month and his mom doesn't work. That has to support the family of four.. tough.. I told him that he didn't need to repay me, instead just return the favour when I need help in the future. =)

Overall it has been an awesome day, was great seeing some old classmates again! Really enjoyed myself!

This is the lyrics for one of Corrinne May's song in her first album, Fly Away. Decided to get on to post it cause I got no mood to study.. =\ (bio and phy prelim practical tomorrow) I uploaded the song onto Multiply but it isn't loading.. =\ This song relates to someone I know.. ;)

You can also listen to her newer album, Safe In A Crazy World at http://www.corrinnemay.com/safe/flash/index2.htm as long as you have Marcomedia Flash 7. =)

Something About You
Don't know what you do to me but
Everytime I'm with you its a natural high
its like re-discovering Eden
with chocolate-coated rainbows and cotton candy skies
And everytime you look my way
I wish i had the guts to say

There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.

I think i'll hire Cupid
He'll make you see I'm more than your friend
You'll be tossing and turning
Counting the hours til you see me again
And when we meet you'll
Kiss my hand and say the words I've longed to hear

There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.

Called up all of my old classmates yesterday night, asking them whether they would be going back to our primary school and visit the teachers this Teachers' Day on 31 Aug. Even missed 15 mins of CSI but then again, the former is more important.

Primary school life played an important part in crafting me into who I am today.. that's why I took the effort to call everyone up. However, some just went "don't want lah.." or "going out with friends.." I don't understand why they're so "wang en fu yi", means like they've forgotten who brought them up but in this case they've forgotten who their alma mater is.

Kinda looking forward to it cause I didn't visit Mdm Pang (my primary school form teacher) at all this year. Would be cool to see my old classmates as well. =)

Had a slight migraine starting again this afternoon. It always happens when I'm stressed out. Good thing I took a panadol, else it'd become serious. And why was I stressed out?

Well.. I was emotional about some thoughts yesterday. About whether Magic and RuneScape was still consuming too much of my time and about whether I really wanted attention from my family. It's ironic. I feel that I'm not receiving real love from my family, yet I got a little angry when my elder sis asked me why I wasn't sleeping yet at 11pm.

I went up to class after breakfast and thought it through silently. Perhaps I was just thinking too much. I'm really bored of RS and didn't even touch Magic the whole weekend, they aren't barriers to me anymore. The new barrier is my lack of motivation to study. I need to find out what should be driving me to work hard and then exploit it..

Tiring day.. did two sourced-based questions under a time limit of 40 minutes and a free-writing composition in 45 minutes. FYI, that makes about 5.5 pages worth of writing, not to mention the amount of thinking spent. =
Intentionally didn't bring my Magic deck to school today so that I wouldn't play. Like I said in my previous post, the barrier which is stopping me from studying at full-power Magic and I'm going to remove it.

I scored a grade of 3 for my Chinese 'O' levels which is about 65-70 marks but the bell-curve change could have pushed it fowards or backwards. I decided not to re-take it after a talk with my god-sis last night. I'd rather concentrate on my other subjects than work on Chinese which I have absolutely no interest in. I told myself, "since you're not re-taking Chinese, then you better spend your time studying the other subjects".

I'm totally bored of RuneScape so it isn't the barrier which is holding me back from studying. I finally realised what it really was just a few minutes ago, it is MagicTheGathering (a trading card game). I had spent 2 hours earlier working on my decks and 4/6 of them lack a few cards from being completed. Yes I know, I should have been studying..

I have to get my priorities right now. I can continue with Magic as it works as a de-stresser but I can't digress from studying. After all of my decks are completed (which probably will take 2-3 days), I must stop wasting my time on it.

Went to Corrinne May's concert yesterday. For those of you who don't know, she is a Singaporean singer songwriter. She is really awesome, she wrote all of the songs (if I'm not wrong) in her two albums, Fly Away and Safe In A Crazy World.

Each of her songs are carefully written and are extremely meaningful. To those who do not have her albums, please get it!!

There were times when I was really down, just totally mentally wrecked.. until I listened to her songs. They are able to bring one's spirits up, if he or she knows how to appreciate them.

I'm looking forward to her next album and of course, her next concert. I wish I could hear her sing all over again..

I don't know what to do anymore. Wasted the whole weekend just slacking around and didn't get any studying done. I'm just not in the mood..

Hopefully Corrinne May's concert on Wednesday will get my engine started again..

Messed up at the last two chrous of the song during Patrician Idol cause couldn't get back to the appropriate tone..

I feel guilty though.. cause I disappointed my guitarist who took the effort to practise and play for me.

If I could start all over again, I would definitely practise even harder.. but it's too late now. Oh well, what matters to me right now is that I went out there and sang. I'll take this as a lesson to learn from.